2/ 70-day challenge

Counting down for something
倒數

Don’t be afraid to be yourself
不要怕做自己

21 December 2019- Cafe day

For me, I would apply myself to explore all the corners of the place while doing short term travel, like no tomorrow; but I would slow down and expose myself to feel, to experience life when staying in an unfamiliar place for a longer time. Most of the time, my habits will stay the same.

短暫的旅行，會是每天像世界末日一樣迫不及待探索每個角落；到一個某個陌生的地方生活，只會放慢腳步體驗生活感受自己的心，但絕大多數時候，生活的模式跟原本的習慣不會差太多。

It used to be doing house chores on Saturdays and pampering myself on Sundays when I was still an office lady. Now, Saturdays are still house chores days, but also cafe days. I love to find a nice cafe and enjoy the fresh air and every moment in life.

過去上班族的生活，週六是打掃日，週日是犒賞自己的日子；現在頹廢不上班的日子，週六還是打掃日，也找間Cafe享受悠閒的早午餐，不是犒賞的心態，而是讓自己享受人生風景。

Many friends said they envy my current life with no job and burden. Yes, I know. I personally envy myself actually. But if I have words, I rather say “I appreciate myself".
I worked hard to accumulate my saving, so I don’t have to worry about the finance, including myself and my parents, in at least 1 year. That’s why I earn the chance to stop routines for a year.

很多人說羨慕我這樣1年都不工作，我也很羨慕。但我覺得，更多的是欣賞！
努力存了可以揮霍1年多不擔心的本錢，這可不是只有自私的個人生活費，還包括給我家長輩的孝親費。然後，給人生畫了個分號，把自己端端地放在分號裡面1年。

Have I ever worried about the life afterward? Of course, I’ve been worried about everything since I made the decision. Like a couple days ago, my heart basically was in my mouth for at least one hour when I checked my online banking. I have nightmares all the time due to worry the life in the future. But I have to keep brave since I’ve made the decision, right?
I tell myself “we only live once and money couldn’t be the most important element in life".

要說從來不擔心分號之後的生活？怎麼可能？前天查閱電子存摺，心臟還是忍不住急迫地跳了1小時，晚上睡覺還是很多噩夢，不過，既然做出選擇，就要勇敢向前。錢再賺就有，人生一去不回頭了！

Some friends said “you can be willful only because you are not in a marriage and no kids." I can’t agree more. However, I know a lot of people choose stay at where they are, even they aren’t in a marriage and no kids, like me. I believe it’s just different choices for someone else life. If I had got married and had child at some point of my life, I might still stop everything and traveled with my kids; I might choose to stay at where I am because a life with kids is too busy to think about other possibility. No matter what, it’s just a result or process of life, I couldn’t predict another possibility because I’ve been here now.

我知道有人會說，那是我沒小孩沒家庭，才可以這麼灑脫。首先，我要說，這種說法一點都沒錯！不過，像我一樣沒小孩沒家庭的人也很多，但不一定人人都看得開，對吧？再者，我沒小孩沒家庭也是一個選擇的過程，如果在人生的某個時間點，我走上了有家庭有小孩的路，也許分號的形式會不一樣，帶著小孩一起放縱？也許根本沒有分號了，因為顧小孩是24小時全年無休的志業？我也不曉得踏上另一種人生道路會是什麼樣的光景，因為我已經走到另一條路了。

I would never and ever tell other people “follow my step, quit your job, and do nothing for one year" because everyone has their own unique circumstance. Therefore, when I’m on my own way, don’t be a sour grape or push me to figure out the next step. I have no idea really. I’m still in the process and today is my cafe day.

我不會跟其他人說，來喔，都和我一樣吧！因為每個人選擇的道路不一樣；但一直要語帶酸氣說羨慕，或者一直要逼迫我講出偉大的下一步的，都麻煩停一下吧！我不知道該回答什麼，我的分號還沒結束。而且，今天是我的咖啡館日。